Im going through some major changes in my life at the moment. I met this guy a last year, and we both fell for each other really quickly. Sooner than later he left his job and his home and moved to london to be with me. It was hard for him to adjust living in a new area with no friends so i tried to support him as much as i can. He eventually found a job and within 4 weeks of him being there he has admitted to me that he has feelings for a girl that he works with.

Now im going through a messy break up and he is leaving my house within a few days. He has stated that he dont want to break up and that he has been suppressing his feelings as he knew that it was not right. He has also stated that he loves me more as a friend than a girlfriend. Which has fucked me up in a way as i never ever would have imagined this man to be the way that he was.

Ladies i kid you not, he cooked, cleaned, gave me back rubs, looked after me, talked to me with so much respect. We never argued and if something was broke he would want to fix it. He would carry me to bed at night if i fell asleep on the couch as he couldn't stand me sleeping without him.

I would have never expected him to be like this or do this.

So now... my ass is back in the studio cause i have sooooooooo much hurt to vent...
I was planning to do a gig in May but now that im living by myself again i have financial responsibilites more now than before.

Men ........ can't live with them, can't feed them poison.